spontaneous

Since when did i stop become spontaneous and start moving in schedule properly? growing up phase i'm assuming. not that it's all bad news and stuff. it's good to know what to do next. :) just that i miss being spontaneous sometimes.

my poor eyes

i have this tendency to sleep at a certain time frame no matter how tired i am. i think it's because i always thought that i can do so much before i head to bed and i dont wanna waste my time lying down when i can get things done. workaholic? nah. there's just a lot of things going in my head. you know, the brain, it's complicated. (HAH nerd joke. LOLSS)

anyway, i'm extra lame when i'm tired. so obviously i'm lame. i mean tired. yea, i really should head to bed now. goodnight world. :)

emo much?

honestly, i dont know what's going wrong with me these days. I have lots of things i know i need to settle and i used to do it in a fast pace and the thoughts of "get it done quickly!" would just be enough to motivate me to really get it done! but why cant i get those thoughts back?

I've been hearing friends around me saying, "ah, i'm getting older." but hey, i'm only in my early twenties! is that old? bahh.

so it got me thinking, what's next? why am i like so? i really need to get my thoughts sorted out. I wouldn't want my mid life crisis to be advanced. talk about the horror *shudders*

I need direction. i need principals. and mostly, i need a living soul, not a hibernating one. loved how glee came up with an original song "get it right". lyrics for the week: "my best intentions keep making a mess of things, just wanna fix it somehow." get it right ;)

autumn summer mix

this weather is confusing. feels like summer with the hot sun glaring but yet it has the windiness of an autumn's day. totally sums up how i feel now, a mixture of gladness yet there's this whole part of things that i miss having around. ah, i miss home =/

snapshots

my next aim, DSLR camera! being around people who are using them makes me uber interested in getting one! the pictures can always be so amazing even when you simply snap a photo. so if you really put effort and thoughts in taking the photo with such a camera, imagine what awesomeness can you produce! DSLR, you're mine next. teehee

boredom

i should learn to handle it well. i was told to get a hobby but but but, i have general feeling towards most of the things. alright, brainstorm-----maybe i should start to learn French? hmm, let's just leave it at that 1st, i want my rest ;) teehee

Is it me, or am I obviously getting older

they say as you age, the considerations increases with it. well, i have so much to figure out but with no answers that i just wanted to get things flowing in words.

first thought: age- as we grows, courage shrinks. adults start to be extra careful and stick to the similar routine everyday. i think everyone is oblige to have a list of things to do before you're 30, 40 and 50 years old. that way, you can keep track of what you haven't achieve instead of thinking about the days when you COULD have done something about it. a dream doesnt have to be huge, it just has to have a sense of accomplishment when doing it. make it, live it ;)